Unfortunately, He May Never Know
Despite the results of the tests, Matthews still considers himself the son of Manson. He went on to say, “I live in chaos and uncertainty, and frankly, it sucks. It’s the worst possible outcome. He’s my biological father – I can’t help but have some kind of emotional connection. That’s the hardest thing of all – feeling love for a monster who raped my mother. Everybody has a unique and special sort of love for their progenitors even if they are different or disturbed or monsters. I don’t want to love him, but I don’t want to hate him either.”